Our First time…
Initially, I was scared as my heart raced faster than the speed of light…Oh! I was confused. I didn’t know if I was ready for this just yet ! An adrenaline rush to hold you and turn you on was stronger in me today . I needed to do this now or never , you had driven me to this level of madness.
I wasn’t in a position to judge my own decisions today. But what if the world judges me ? Were we really ready for this ? Isn’t it too early ; you and me alone for the first time. I hope we don’t hurt each other. What if I was too slow or came across too fast.
I wasn’t sure if I knew everything about this. No ,I wasn’t sure , if this was the right thing to do. This was my first time, but I so much wanted this . My mind was chanting continuously “Go for it – lets just do it baby”!!
AND SO WE DID ! Our Very first time….
The light breeze had a calming effect on my face which was still warm and red from the apprehension and nervousness inside. We will be good at this, I knew it and this didn’t look to me as a bad decision at all .
This decision— to drive out with you today ! As we went past my society exit gate, I saw the security guard giving me a send off salute, I faked a smile hoping he didn’t read my nervous vibes . I firmly gripped you a bit more closer with both my hands, my foot closer to the brakes now. I wanted to feel in control. Wanted to come back in one piece to prove to that security guard that see ‘Madam can drive and she is back’!!
I heard my heart pound a million beats as I sat upright holding your steering closer than I usually do.I was a tad more careful today ,eying the road like an eagle to make sure I ran over no one. I also wanted to make sure nothing goes wrong on our first date-ride together. It was a day to prove myself. My confidence was at stake.The world was watching or so it seemed that day as we drove along the lanes of Bengaluru.It was the summer of 2006 ! Just you and me together !!! Oh, how much I loved you. It was Our First Time out alone …
Just a couple of meters away from home, the fear- the inhibitions left me, well almost !😉
I was more in control of both myself and you now. I was happy we did this. No regrets at all. My confidence rocked ! The sunglasses over my head which were securing my tresses from flying now came down to the place where they belong. My chin went up , abs tucked it and a sat up tall and straight. Today I felt like the most beautiful girl on the roads of Bengaluru ! As the mobile buzzed a few times getting me back to the reality of being a wife to someone !! I could see my husband called me 3 times during my adventure day out .He must have been hell worried, he had asked me not to venture alone and to wait till he comes back from work. He promised he will take me out and let me drive over the weekend…but I insisted that I was ready and could not procrastinate this any longer. I just had to do this someday and that someday was Today.
Smiling and beaming with my new found confidence and wings, I was happy and much relaxed. Dhano too, seemed calmer now.I could sense that as the drive was less jerky now. Dhano is what I fondly called my first car.
Over the years ,It is this beauty who taught me how to drive – who taught me to be fearless but cautious on the road- who taught me to wear my attitude when I drive and never let any moron take advantage of me on the road ! She taught me Never to give way to a honker who tried challenging my inner peace. My car taught me how to be a Queen on the road, Oh yes, that’s just I feel. It has taught me to be patient and roar ahead yet always be in control.
Driving her has been a pleasurable and evolving experience and in all these years she has been my best friend who made me evolve and build up my confidence. She made me Independent !
So, Thank you! Thank you that we have always gelled so well and we have taken care not to hurt each other Eva! Never rubbed each other the wrong way – no scratch no dents in these 10 years of driving with you !!😍
Some memories always bring back a smile ! 😌